Tuesday, April 18, 2006

I wrote this a few days ago

I'm doing that thing again. That thing I do when I get overwhelmed. I sit peacefully allowing everything to fall apart. It's a strange control thing. Like I can't hold my world together but I can let it fall apart. The clutter piles up, the laundry, the half started projects. I get behinder and behinder on work. It's like by intentionalizing my giving up I'm claiming the power to landslide my life, my world.

Then of course I always rush in at the last and save everything from ruin. I stop the total destruction, single handedly. I am my own hero for awhile again.

1 Comments:

At 11:25 PM, Blogger oklahoma exile said...

What a deeply interesting perspective. I think you have captured it.

 

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